|it`s true buddy.
||[May. 25th, 2006|11:54 pm]
|||||you and me -Lifehouse||]|
1. list ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2. don't say who they are.
3. never discuss it again.
1. Go ahead and smother yourself with your huge ass ego. You know you loved me too. You know you always wanted to hold my hand but you didn`t have the balls to show that fuckin weakness. You really did waste a lot of my time and even though you will always be my first and so far love...baby, it`s too easy to play these games.
2.You are totally my fuckin hero. But, It`s not that hard to let go. I don`t understand why you don`t just deal with the cards you are dealt. I`d like to take you somewhere beautiful and show you that there`s a lot more light in a different angle. Change a little and let go some more, because at the rate you`re going, nothing will satisfy you in the end.
3. I seriously love you. Not like that, but you know what i mean. You are the greatest influence I`ve ever had in my life. You make sense of every situation and when I`m confused you clear the way. It`s very very nice to talk to you about anything because I know that your answers will always sooth the situation.
4. Okay, I don`t hate you. I envy you. You hate me and I know that much. There are so many things about you that I wish I had. Your strength, your perfect qualities, and your desire to be someone. I really admire your confidence...the confidence that you should really use against the weak son of a bitch that you`re dating. I can definitely see you getting far...drop the baggage, he`s a waste of time.
5. Our past is totally ran over and shot to hell. I`ll never forget the crazy shit we pulled and the drama we started. We were the ultimate duo and that shit will never die. I`ll always be here for you but you have to understand that life brings you through many stages. Drugs are shitty fuckin phases that you honestly need to let pass. You are so fucking beautiful and I can see it in the jealous eyes of everyone around you. Use your beauty and use your brains because you are the only one I actually WANT to be better than me.
6. I`ve known you for my whole fucking life. I love you to death and I respect anything you do. I would really appreciate it if you would consider the circumstances of every situation because when you jump to answers...you might end up in a hole deeper than the one you`re already standing in. I`ll always be 100% behind your back because that`s how we roll. I just think after a little tune-up you will be A-Ok. Don`t sweat the small stuff.
7. You are amazing. You really are a good kid. I really really enjoy listening to you. For some reason, you are one of the many human beings I can listen to for over 5 minutes and stay entertained. Your company brings me excitement that I really can never explain. Unfortunately, we might be on different pages. I accept your thoughts and feelings and I completely respect your opinions. I am not as ready as I seem to be on the inside. You are definitely good for me. Stick around, please.
8. You are my favorite/craziest/funniest mother fucking friend in this whole world. You bring out my major giggles. You are sweet and extremely down to earth. You don`t give a fuck what people think and that`s what I love about you. Even though at times you let your weaknesses get the best of you, I have no problem being there for you. Your comfort is also greatly appreciated considering the amount of times we have been mobbin deep together. Even though we haven`t known eachother for a full year yet, I feel like i`ve known you forever. I just wish you would overcome the obstacles from the past. You can`t let anything obstruct your dreams because you can definitely make it. Get your head on straight and keep it that way.
9. Thick and Thin and everything else. Since day one I have loved the companionship you provide. You are definitely the brother I never had. I love how much we understand eachother, and I also love how much we argue. We are like a married couple that lost it`s spark. Recently, things have jumped onto a different track and things are changing. I`m not quite sure what to think of your thoughts, but I`ll make sure to tell you what I think ;)
10. Last, but certainly NOT least...you. You`re a keeper. You struggled enough to stick around and deal with all my shit. Thank god you understand me. Sometimes I feel like no one can. Thank you for being such a sport. There`s only one thing you need to do, Stop Lying to your friends. We know when you lie and I don`t understand why you avoid the truth. We love you for who you are and there`s nothing else to it. There are so many words falling out of your mouth, and I wish I knew which statements to believe. I want you to know that your insecurities are safe with us. By the way, Get rid of that girl, she`s way too screech screech for you. There`s too many things right in front of you, try grabbing whatever you can reach.